Extinguishing the Light of Me, the Child

It was recently asked on Quora if who I was a child was still with me today, and my answer was retrospective, succinct and very sadly, a huge “no”.

Life took all the vibrancy and spark I had as a child and left a shell of insecurity, emotional distance and anxiety…

As a child, I was fearless; I embraced challenge. I was creative and bold. My personality and talents were evident and exuberant. I lived in full colour and imagination and hope. I loved and was loved. I believed in myself, my dreams and my passions.

In what now seems to have been a blink of an eye, everything changed. I changed.

My world became black and white. I became trapped in the prison of my existence.

My inner child…died. The spark was extinguished and no efforts I make seem to be able to re-light it.

The child that was wouldn’t recognize the adult that is, and the adult I am misses the child I was.